At the junction of shattered and broken.
How did I get here again...
Why, oh why, did I...
Care.
Isn't that what we're supposed to do?
In my experience, the result is always...
pain.
And still here I am again...
heartbroken.
Staring at the shattered pieces of my heart...
like glass...
on a concrete slab...
Why does it matter to me?
It's really my own fault, but I still hurt.
I took each step, telling myself that I didn't...
CARE...
Lying...
Deceiving...
Because I do care.
Because I don't know how not to.
And I am alone...
I've tried to be a rock...
an Island.
It doesn't work.
Because...
I cry...
and I feel...
and I break.
Again...
and again...
and again.
You don't even know me...
We have never met...
But I cried today when I saw you.
You saw me... How could you not?
To you, I was just another being...
But to my heart of stress fractures...
you are a sledgehammer.
The words you wrote...
The life you carry...
The prize you won.
When will it stop?
Never...
Not in this life.
Maybe it was a dime store ring...
That prize,
but to me, currently,
It was like a shiny diamond.
Yes, I stole the lyrics...
They speak when I have no words.
When all I can do is cry...
Again...
and again...
and again.
I need you...
Where are you?
Take your time...
Because it's going to take me awhile...
to reassemble this shattered heart...
Again.
And I am alone...
I've tried to be a rock...
an Island.
It doesn't work.
Because I cry and I feel and I break.
Again...
and again...
and again.
Perhaps, once upon a future,
I shall look back at this with...
understanding...
They say hindsight is always 20/20.
Who are they...
The past confuses me as much as the future.
And I am broken.
Shattered.
And alone.
Again...
and again...
and again.
And I am alone...
I've tried to be a rock...
an Island.
It doesn't work.
Because I cry and I feel and I break.
Again...
and again...
and again.
